IMMA DO IT!!!

(^_^)I'M GOIN NATURAL (^_^) 

you know just making the decision to go natural took a weight off of my shoulders. I'm totally doing it. This isn't about other people or about how others are going to feel about me. I'm going natural. I plan on transitioning for a year. So I'll cut off my relaxed hair around thanksgiving of next year.

 I'm so excited

My struggle, what do I REALLY look like

So I've been struggling with the idea of going natural for... years. I don't think anyone understands how much I'm struggling with this. But I'm scared I'm honestly scared about how everyone will look at me. I'm scared that no one will love the natural me. But theres the other side of me that stays up till 2am researching natural hair and looking at others journeys. 

There is a part of me that wants to go natural so bad it makes me cry I'm tired of struggling with my hair. I have never obsessed over my weight like I have my hair; but I'm so scared.  I'd love for the rest of my hair to look like my new growth........sigh

Blues!

This is the blue look I have on in the photos from my first post I only showed pics of my eye because I didn't have on foundation :eeeeeeek: 

Mac paint pot- groundwork

mac e/s clarity lid, trax inner crease, brown down outer crease, mac brule highlight 

sephora summer safari pallet nameless brown- highlight ^_^

 

my ridiculous makeup collection. 

Product List

So I came up with a product list I'm going to try when I take my braids out and get a relaxer.  Then I'm going to try and go 12 weeks without a perm.

Oils/ Sealing Oils

Coconut oil

Hot six oil

Vatika oil

Moisturizing shampoo

Kenra Moisturizing Shampoo

Joico Moisture recovery 

Clarifying Shampoo

Kenra Clarifying Shampoo

Moisture Based Deep Conditioner

Kenra Deep Penetrating Moisture Treatment

Joico Moisture recovery 

Protein Based Deep Conditioner- every 6 weeks. 

Joico K-pak

Moisture based LIC

Nexxus Humectress

Protein Based LIC

Chi Keratin mist

Kenra Daily defense leave in

I also just started using Hair skin and nail vitamins from GNC I'm also going to get some more msm tablets well thats it I'll post another blog in a few weeks to show the new growth from my braids. 

My goal is strong healthy SL- APL hair by the end of 2009

I may try ateyaaa's aphogee method from youtube but I never really liked aphogee i think I'll stick with joico and kenra these are the products used by my stylist 

Also I have nothing to do tomorrow so I'll probably put up a make up post for the blue look below

What to expect

I'm at a point in my life where I don't know whats going to happen, I don't know who I am or where I'm going. I don't know why I'm in school I'm just in school All I know is that I love me, but I want to be a better me. I'm tired of struggling with my weight and being told that I have to lose weight, I LOVE WHO I AM!!!!! I always have and I am not trying to be smaller but healthier. I'm tired of struggling with my hair I can grow my hair out. I will grow my hair out I'm tired of being labeled and told things about my body. It's my body. God said it's his temple so with the help of God I can be whoever I want to be I will be whoever I want to be. I want to be a better me. I started this blog as a promise to myself to change. I will try to post something every two weeks. It wont be as personal as my myspace or livejournal. This is about my hair journey and about my journey for a better me. 

This is my hair about a week after my relaxer towards the last two weeks of september 2008. I also got my hair cut again my hair is normally chin length I got it cut because it was beyond overprocessed. I started going to a great hair stylist and as of right now my hair is healthy.

This is me now I took this photo two nights ago I got these braids three weeks ago. I haven't had a relaxer in about 9 weeks. I want to try and go 4 months. I know some people have a hard time wearing braids. but braids have never damaged my hair. Braids make my hair grow as long as I keep them moisturized. these are box braids I have never gotten micro braids. Right now I have a little under a half and inch of new growth 3 weeks into my braids. 

 

I would love to go natural but I just don't have the self esteem to do so. Right now I'm going to try and grow my hair and keep it relaxed it is possible I'm going to try and only get a relaxer three times a year. and see if I can slowly stop. I plan on taking my braids out when I go home for christmas break around the third week of December.