Blessed

Im finally taking the time to get to know my hair and treat myself right. I've never seen my true hair texture because I was too young to remember and even then I was getting it pressed with too hot hot combs and as a result is stretched my hair permanently because of heat damage. but Im doing the natural thing without drying braids and loving my texture who would have thought that I have pencil sized really tight spirals I thought it was all nap nap in there. I learned that I can't fight my natural hair and try to straighten it I gotta keep it all moisturized and let the natural hair do it's own thing underneath my creamy cracked out relaxed hair. I can say for the first time I really love my hair!!! The best part is I know how to keep my hair healthy and neat while working out in the gym so Im more motivated to work out. I have very supportive ppl and some not so much but w.e. I love me Thank Jesus. I think a lot of the stupid stuff I allow myself get into is because I've never really been happy with myself and how i look I remember feeling fat in elementary school I'm not huge by anyone standards but I'm not happy I feel good about myself not much has changed but the process of being in control and just doing something about it makes me feel so inspired to just pour 110% into everything in my life because God will always see it through.

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So, almost a year later and I still haven't done it, I want to go natural so bad it takes a lot of guts to go natural but I guess it really is just hair :/ I'm going to make a serious attempt this time. What am I waiting for, its been two years that I've been talking about it and that could have been two years of hair growth ugh, so I'm going to do it I'm not going to talk to anyone about it, especially not my mom, love her to death but she doesn't like anything she talked me out of it last time. Last Relaxer June 23rd 2009 !!!!!!! and I'm serious this time.